I often steal or sneak a peek on my lover’s phone when he’s in the shower. I do this all the time now. Before it locks, I am there. One day I found some emails in his archives. It involved a female friend of his that secretly had an abortion with her lover of many years. I believe that child was his but only know when manic they both often had *** together when he visited her. He says he can’t have kids but I wonder. Am I jealous or just curious as most of us are? I wonder. Turns me on of all the second secrecy but I feel for him as he likely wouldn’t know much as he’s mainly a great friend and lover. I recently sent an anonymous email to the guy she said knocked her upgrade ago. Maybe this will bring the truth out. She lies about so much as he’s good me anyways that I thought it anonymously pry my way in here on this ancient issue. I guess I like to start trouble as my lover has no idea I use his phone to do this. If it were to somehow come back to him, he would be baffled and I would lose the best *** I’ve ever had. However, I find this exciting like when I cheat on my husband with him. Maybe we’re all bad but I know I’m as horrible as his female friend was years ago.